I was diagnosed with depression when I was 20 years old. I believe the symptoms were identifiable earlier. I plan on sorting through previous blogs and journals and memories to better understand my own experience with depression. Please note, I don’t expect anyone to read this. However, if you do, all I would hope you take away from my ramblings is that depression is real. And if you suffer from it, know that you are not alone.Tumblr (3.0; @depressedmuch)http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/I have been unemployed the majority of my 4 years since college ended. I&#8217;ve never been able to...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/49411214553http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/49411214553Wed, 01 May 2013 19:55:00 -0700depressionbreak downunemployed<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/637b0721c8812cbb21b2b711139dec12/tumblr_mm2vfiz9zw1qz6f9yo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://thisisnthappiness.com/post/49266666904/youre-the-one">nevver</a>:</p> <blockquote> <div> <p><a href="http://www.michaelahernandez.com/">You’re the one</a></p> </div> </blockquote>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/49345888936http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/49345888936Wed, 01 May 2013 00:47:00 -0700depressiongraffitiI don&#8217;t know why I haven&#8217;t been utilizing this blog as of late. I&#8217;ve been stuck in...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47735102727http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47735102727Thu, 11 Apr 2013 16:11:00 -0700depressionestrangementlonelydisfunctional<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/eca92afc299f6ce37bfa1ecf956de876/tumblr_mj297kOeiE1r1n2w8o1_500.gif"/><br/><br/><blockquote> <p><em><small>Can you feel my heart? -Bring Me The Horizon.</small></em></p> </blockquote>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47320360381http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47320360381Sat, 06 Apr 2013 17:27:42 -0700<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/80edae29fc851656376fa77072bb572f/tumblr_mksmh5oZCr1qz6f9yo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://thisisnthappiness.com/post/47203256409/dull-melancholy">nevver</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><a href="http://biblioklept.org/2013/04/05/dull-melancholyfantastical-chimeras/">Dull Melancholy</a></p> </blockquote>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47237163983http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/47237163983Fri, 05 Apr 2013 18:23:24 -0700I&#8217;ve hit a real pit of dispair again. To the point where I began searching out depression...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/28078455510http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/28078455510Thu, 26 Jul 2012 14:26:05 -0700I went through my twitter account, all the way back to when I started it in summer 2009. Not only...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/23882564300http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/23882564300Sun, 27 May 2012 13:26:59 -0700In light of a recent creative dry spell, I decided to sort through some &#8220;journals&#8221; I...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/20213342909http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/20213342909Fri, 30 Mar 2012 22:59:14 -0700DepressionCollegeMoleskines<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m12oxbSwMQ1rr8vgoo1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p>Still from The Princess Bride - The Pit of Despair.  It just feels fitting considering that’s how I describe my current state of mind.</p>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19504300844http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19504300844Sun, 18 Mar 2012 01:58:23 -0700Pit of DespairPrincess BrideState of MindFor whatever reason, this has been a terrible week.  I&#8217;ve barely been productive in any...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19504280600http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19504280600Sun, 18 Mar 2012 01:57:22 -0700DepressionHopelessnessOver EatingNetflix“I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19438003967http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19438003967Fri, 16 Mar 2012 21:58:00 -0700Burn OutFade AwayKurt CobainNeil YoungHey Hey My My (Into the Black)<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m10iu8N3oU1rr8vgoo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Kurt Cobain’s suicide note.  Found <a href="http://kurtcobainssuicidenote.com/kurt_cobains_suicide_note_scan.html" title="Kurt" target="_blank">here</a>, includes typed-out version.</p>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19437693982http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19437693982Fri, 16 Mar 2012 21:51:00 -0700Kurt Cobain27 ClubSuicide1994This is going to be a pain to type, I have a bandage on the tip of the finger that deals with...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19437580810http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/19437580810Fri, 16 Mar 2012 21:49:11 -0700DepressionSelf DestructionLonelinessAs stated before, I have been single for over 4 years now.  I&#8217;m a completely different person...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18943016555http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18943016555Thu, 08 Mar 2012 01:53:00 -0800SingleRelationshipSexDatingRevelationAnxietyParanoia<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0k897fVAC1rr8vgoo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>A special shout out to my little cat, she makes me feel happier at least once a day.</p>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942847078http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942847078Thu, 08 Mar 2012 01:41:31 -0800WoodrowPetsJoyHere&#8217;s one of the worst things about being depressed.  Wanting to die.  I&#8217;m not...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942828225http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942828225Thu, 08 Mar 2012 01:40:00 -0800Self LoathingSuicidalHopelessness“Depression is melancholy minus its charms - the animation, the fits.” - Susan Sontaghttp://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942112234http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942112234Thu, 08 Mar 2012 00:53:20 -0800Susan SontagDepression<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m0k4ogsXCR1qawrzyo1_500.gif"/><br/><br/><p>Felt like breaking up the text with an image.  I loved this scene in “Manhattan” not so much the film itself… I found it too sexist for my tastes.</p>http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942055610http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18942055610Thu, 08 Mar 2012 00:49:00 -0800Meryl StreepI&#8217;m moving in a few weeks.  As I said before, I only recently moved to California (last June)....http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18941995793http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18941995793Thu, 08 Mar 2012 00:46:06 -0800Depression2007I have only been diagnosed with depression.  However, based on traits and previous diagnoses within...http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18840285277http://depressedmuch.tumblr.com/post/18840285277Tue, 06 Mar 2012 00:02:34 -0800Family HistoryDepressionManic DepressionBi-Polar Disorderalcoholismanxiety